We woke to dense fog this morning, in VA. Looking out of my window, I felt that the weather reflected the two prior days for me. I battled headaches from the lack of caffeine and felt like a stranger invaded my home and left a bunch of raw veggies in my fridge that I wasn’t sure what to do with. I was also tormented by some blueberry muffins that my daughter and I had made, that were sitting on the counter. Ultimately, they ended up in the trash can and I completed days 1 and 2 successfully.
Day 3 posed a new challenge: dinner out at a restaurant. Tomorrow is my mother’s birthday so we decided to go out for dinner with her. We went to her favorite restaurant: Bistro L’Hermitage, an excellent spot in Woodbridge, VA. I have my normal very unhealthy foods that order every time and I usually don’t even look at the menu. But tonight was different. I looked closely at the menu and selected a beet salad (dressing on the side) and a fish dish (hold the pasta). I ate all of the salad except the candied walnuts and I used only a very small spoon of dressing. I ate 1/2 of the fish (which was excellent) along with some spinach and veggies. For dessert, I had a small bowl of blueberries and strawberries. Overall a wonderful meal. I left full (although I am a bit hungry as I go off to bed), and I have some fish left for tomorrow. This experience is teaching me that there are healthy options on every menu and even with them portion control is important (they served me a lot of fish). I am generally not a big fish eater, but clearly in this journey, I need to learn to appreciate it more. I also need to continue to build the will power to resist the bad choices on the menu. My biggest victory of the day was resisting the amazing fresh, warm bread that they serve at the Bistro. I let my daughter have 3 pieces and I lived vicariously through her!
Today I feel like I came out of the fog both literally and figuratively. My head did not throb as it has been during the past two days, I am sleeping without sleeping pills or Nyquil, and I am generally starting to feel better. I am optimistic that day 4 and beyond will bring even greater clarity of how I can start living a more healthy life.
cammosley 
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